Uhh, Idk how to even put forward my feelings, man. I want to cry every moment of my life, I feel uneasiness, something like a light pain around my chest. Sometimes, I actually just have to hold my fucking chest to make it stop. I think that'd be the best moment to cry it all out, if that'll help (Idk If I want to cry tbh). Cry is symbolism for venting out. I don't know how to do it, how to vent to someone, to whom. It's just like I'm repressing what I feel every second of my life inside myself. Recently, I'm becoming short tempered, not towards anyone else but I just need to fucking hit something, sometimes It's just things in front of me, sometimes It's just me. I have bitten myself. Man, I abuse every fucking one around me in my heart. I feel ashamed to say, even my mom. I hate everyone. But I love them at the same time. I love them more than myself. Especially my mom. I know without her, I wouldn't be anywere. But It just a momentarily lose of control where my true self slips and I just lose the face I have maintained in front of everyone. Tf should I do. It's all so fucking tiresome.
>>1050 Nofap. Yeah. Working out. Nah. I'm a autistic 5'7" retard with no hope for anything physical (y'know what I mean). I just need stability.
>>1051 join a gym bro. i am 5'4 and i used to think like you but then i started working out and today im jacked and happy all the time